sighh
i'm down
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone
I wanna run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away
Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?
I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
If you only knew how much...
*wink*
the final's coming:
27/04 - genetic algorithm genetic programming
28/04 - learning from data
29/04 - probabilistic modelling & reasoning
06/05 - applied database
09/05 - data intensive & linguistic
11/05 - reinforcement learning
13/05 - data mining and exploration
14/05 - visualization
err,tongue twisted..
me,best of luck.doa banyak-banyak,fingers crossed
aku, winduuuu!!
p/s: tensennya =(
siang tadi gi naik edin castle for free.more pics uploaded already hehe
misha,bangun!!misha,bangunlah!misha..mishaaaaa
ape menda la ni,sapa yang nak kena bangun.baru pukul bape?weh,kata nak gi amik tiket siti,bangunlaaaa la,pukul bape dah ni.oh ya,today we got to catch early tren as we wanted to be at msd by 9,possibly.hehe
travel cam biase,naik tren,then tube sampai bayswater.lepas dapat tiket,we had our breakfast at mesian hall,again.this time i treat myself with nasi lemak and teh tarik.yup,memang sedap.lepas makan,jija went on her own,she refused to follow us to madame tussaud,kata dia nak tunggu don.ok,ok so,three of us left.
first thing first,fareeza wanted to buy her extra memory stick.her 16md can only keep like 10 photos,mana tahan tgk aku amik gamba banyak-banyak akakaka th truth is,i feel a little sori to her,it's my bad.at time she bought her camera,i strongly convinced to her that i got extra memory stick,ko bole pakai aku punya dulu,tape..balik-balik umah je,eh,pasal besar lak aku tgk memory stick ko ni.by de way,she just bought herself a new cybershot,kiterang sekarang adik-beradik cybershot hehehe apparently,hers and mine are'nt same.memang le,memory stick pro dengan memory stick pro duo mana nak sama.aku ni pon satu le,petanda alzheimer?tamo tamo,aku tak perasannn..kalo tak,she could get a not-bad price for 64mb,compared to other shops in tottenham court area which don't sell 64mb anymore.well,it's better for her,bole join aku amik gamba cam orang gile =)
before madame tussaud's,we went first to china town.a kewl place too in london,where u can get most of our cooking stuffs there.even malaysian imported pon ada.i noticed that chinese shops sell more expensive,particularly in edin.mahal,mahal.mentang-mentang kat situ je ada.we bought beehun,kuetiaw(nak bawak balik edin wakakaka) and tomyam paste,nak masak kat jija's place.lepas pusing-pusing sini,masa untuk blah..
i was so enthralled as we were heading to madame tussaud's,and it's still 15 past 2.kiterang were quite suprised as the queue wasn't very long.hehe ada can ni beratur kejap je.dalam 15 mins camtu we're close to the entrance,hehehehe
de minute i entered madame tussaud,then i just realized that how long the queue really was.berbelit-belit,ada macam litar f1 kut.patut ah kat luar tak ramai orang.dah le byk corners,pastu ko dah beratur punya panjang kat bawah,kena beratur naik tangga,then queue lagi until the counter.ya Allah,pening pening.kan senang kalo ko beli online siap2.tp,since aku nak pakai 2 for 1 voucher,u can get from here guys,i had to buy from the counter.pastu price per entry also depends on wat time u come.makin petang,makin murah.bila dah sampai kat tangga kan,kiterang punya turn lak nak gelak-gelakkan 'orang-orang gila' yang lain hahahha jap,that makes us gila too,beratur panjang-panjang sampai sakit kaki semata-mata nak amik gambar dgn patung lilin.but,aku encourage sesapa nak visit madame tussaud especially guna la 2 for 1 voucher,sbb memang seronok.we had fun,kan?!!yang kelakanya,kiterang macam rushing semacam(memang pon),amik gamba cepat-cepat,tp fun fun,aku suka la.
lepas madame tussaud.we were rushing to royal albert hall pasal konsert siti nurhaliza.naik tube from baker street to highstreet kengsinton,aku suka la area ni,bukan sebab dia posh ye.according to people here,tempat ni one of posh places in london la.aku suka sebab jalan dia,architecture bangunan dia,then hyde park yang luas tu.we walked for about 15 minutes kut,muka masing-masing dah penat.kat luar hall tu,ramainya orang..aku pon saja je nak tengok sapa yang ada.terasa la,oh bole tahan ramai mesian kat sini.suprisingly,i bumped into a fren from mesia hehehe managed to catch a glimpse of sultan pahang,ish depan mata je tu..most of london people here are students,aku bukan orang london!and i am glad to be edins'.
how's the concert?some high points that i'd to share:
ape menda la ni,sapa yang nak kena bangun.baru pukul bape?weh,kata nak gi amik tiket siti,bangunlaaaa la,pukul bape dah ni.oh ya,today we got to catch early tren as we wanted to be at msd by 9,possibly.hehe
travel cam biase,naik tren,then tube sampai bayswater.lepas dapat tiket,we had our breakfast at mesian hall,again.this time i treat myself with nasi lemak and teh tarik.yup,memang sedap.lepas makan,jija went on her own,she refused to follow us to madame tussaud,kata dia nak tunggu don.ok,ok so,three of us left.
first thing first,fareeza wanted to buy her extra memory stick.her 16md can only keep like 10 photos,mana tahan tgk aku amik gamba banyak-banyak akakaka th truth is,i feel a little sori to her,it's my bad.at time she bought her camera,i strongly convinced to her that i got extra memory stick,ko bole pakai aku punya dulu,tape..balik-balik umah je,eh,pasal besar lak aku tgk memory stick ko ni.by de way,she just bought herself a new cybershot,kiterang sekarang adik-beradik cybershot hehehe apparently,hers and mine are'nt same.memang le,memory stick pro dengan memory stick pro duo mana nak sama.aku ni pon satu le,petanda alzheimer?tamo tamo,aku tak perasannn..kalo tak,she could get a not-bad price for 64mb,compared to other shops in tottenham court area which don't sell 64mb anymore.well,it's better for her,bole join aku amik gamba cam orang gile =)
before madame tussaud's,we went first to china town.a kewl place too in london,where u can get most of our cooking stuffs there.even malaysian imported pon ada.i noticed that chinese shops sell more expensive,particularly in edin.mahal,mahal.mentang-mentang kat situ je ada.we bought beehun,kuetiaw(nak bawak balik edin wakakaka) and tomyam paste,nak masak kat jija's place.lepas pusing-pusing sini,masa untuk blah..
i was so enthralled as we were heading to madame tussaud's,and it's still 15 past 2.kiterang were quite suprised as the queue wasn't very long.hehe ada can ni beratur kejap je.dalam 15 mins camtu we're close to the entrance,hehehehe
de minute i entered madame tussaud,then i just realized that how long the queue really was.berbelit-belit,ada macam litar f1 kut.patut ah kat luar tak ramai orang.dah le byk corners,pastu ko dah beratur punya panjang kat bawah,kena beratur naik tangga,then queue lagi until the counter.ya Allah,pening pening.kan senang kalo ko beli online siap2.tp,since aku nak pakai 2 for 1 voucher,u can get from here guys,i had to buy from the counter.pastu price per entry also depends on wat time u come.makin petang,makin murah.bila dah sampai kat tangga kan,kiterang punya turn lak nak gelak-gelakkan 'orang-orang gila' yang lain hahahha jap,that makes us gila too,beratur panjang-panjang sampai sakit kaki semata-mata nak amik gambar dgn patung lilin.but,aku encourage sesapa nak visit madame tussaud especially guna la 2 for 1 voucher,sbb memang seronok.we had fun,kan?!!yang kelakanya,kiterang macam rushing semacam(memang pon),amik gamba cepat-cepat,tp fun fun,aku suka la.
lepas madame tussaud.we were rushing to royal albert hall pasal konsert siti nurhaliza.naik tube from baker street to highstreet kengsinton,aku suka la area ni,bukan sebab dia posh ye.according to people here,tempat ni one of posh places in london la.aku suka sebab jalan dia,architecture bangunan dia,then hyde park yang luas tu.we walked for about 15 minutes kut,muka masing-masing dah penat.kat luar hall tu,ramainya orang..aku pon saja je nak tengok sapa yang ada.terasa la,oh bole tahan ramai mesian kat sini.suprisingly,i bumped into a fren from mesia hehehe managed to catch a glimpse of sultan pahang,ish depan mata je tu..most of london people here are students,aku bukan orang london!and i am glad to be edins'.
how's the concert?some high points that i'd to share:
- she's pretty,ni dari pandangan aku yg agak jauh hehehe
- baju-baju dia,aduhh cantik sih.so sesapa nak kawen tu bole la bole amik idea.sesapa yang mampu,bole la go direct to radzuan radziwill or michael ong(kalo tak silap),hehehe
- the talented,best Asian kept-secret,camtu la Mahathie Lokman cakap.talented,ye.suara dia,memang powerful.that's why she's still numero uno
- english dia,tho there's a bit improvement but it's nerve wrecking for her.kadang-kadang apa dia sebut tu tak jelas sbb dia cover ??maybe maybe tp english aku pon ahahaha sendiri paham-pahamla cuma lagu dia tak familiar sangat
- mujur le dia nyanyi lagu-lagu yang orang familiar,preferable to her old songs
klaka aa datang sini jauh-jauh sebok nak tgk konsert mesian singer lagi.tp tu la aku sedar,bila aku datang sini,i was so desperately menggeledah balik malay songs.lagu lama,lagu sekarang,aku carik balik tp mostly that i used to listen to..
guess that's wrapped up for today.banyak lagi nak share tp if i had more time..i wish hehehe
guess that's wrapped up for today.banyak lagi nak share tp if i had more time..i wish hehehe
my madame tussaud's collections 
sori la,london entry ni memang lama aku nak amik masa nak tulis.sbb meself occupy wit something else at de moment, kena la pandai2 curi masa sket.let me start with pagi kamis.pagi khamis kiterang sampai tu,rasa tak larat nak bangun pon ada.penat.tp sebab nak bejalan,bangun le jugak.siap-siap dan we're off to central.
first thing to do is to buy the travel card.kiterang beli kat kedai dekat dgn brunel u. ni,which owns by indian(kut?), and operates by indians too.fareeza belikan tiket untuk aku sekali as she got 20 pound wit her.dia pon kasi.then 2 indians yang jaga kedai ni,seemed reluctant to accept the money, just becos it's not english pound.wat's wrong with scottish pound.i've been informed that scottish pound pon accepted satu uk.kitorang cakap le,that's all money we got.we just arrived here last nite.dengan beratnya dia amik,pastu aku nampak cam dia highlitekan duit tu dengan colorless highlighter.chee,terhina lak aku rasa.terus mood potong,apa ah
after getting ourselves with the travel card,we headed to the bus stop nearby,waiting fo bus.bas pon datang,222.eeh,cam bas intrakota le,color je lain,color merah.lupa nak cakap,harga travel card ni,6 pound.dengarnya baru naik new yr ari tu,last time 5 pound.this card allows u to take trens,tubes,buses and covers all zones,1-6.kiterang naik bas sampai tren statation West Drayton.kiterang naik tren,to Paddington.leila dgn jija pemandu pelancong kite ari ni,so its Piccadily Circus next.kitorang naik tube,Piccadily Line..
piccadily circus junctions
sebaik je klua dari underground stesen tu,aku rasa kagum.sebab ramai orang,crowded dan aku terasa,camni rupanya metroolitan city.setiap menda aku wowkan,buildings,kenderaan yang banyak dan bersesak-sesak,orang yang ramai.tourist pon ramai,aku assume le sebab ramai orang amik gambar kat sini.kenapa nama dia circus?aku rasa kan,sebab architecture buildings dia yang macam membulat,macam circus kan in a round shape.hehe tatau le betul ke tak,tp dr observation aku sini,aku kagum tgk old buildings,nak 'bulatan' yang aku cakap tu hehehe oh ya,kat piccadily circus ni ada satu femes statue,EROS - a pagan god of luv,a bronze fountain topped by a figure of a winged archer.kenapa ye aku telupa nak amik gamba statue nih,aku pon satu la.kat sini ramai orang melepak.pastu kiterang masuk lillewhites,which according to jija n leila,a place where u can get sport stuffs at very good price.tp aku rasa sini lagi murah ahahahahha
then,we began to move to other place?where next?lepas discuss2 kiterang decide nak gi mana.mmm ok kite gi oxford street.so we took a bus to get to oxford.if u decide to enjoy london sightseeings,of course bus is the best option.aku start nampak dah boutiques..oh nak sampai kut.aku turun bas je,zapp in a flash,i saw meself and kenit wen we were in singapore.aku nampak jin, dan ayuz..kitorang merayau2 kat orchard road.becoz wat i saw in oxford street,it reminisced me back to those time..wen we were so excited about sin.masuk satu mall ke mall yang lain.those times dat i missed so much..mmmm
aku sebok nak gi niketown.nak tgk camne niketown yang diperkatakan orang ni.uih,besar bapak,its like a mall.jordan siap ada satu section kat first floor.aku takut-takut berani,sebok nak amik gamba.nak amik gamba kasut sebenanya,nak tunjuk kat awk.ish kalo kenit ada nih,mesti dia senyum,sengih lebar2 sampai telinga.hehe ada j13 sumer color,low cut punya,ada j20 yg ramai org duk tengok-tengok,ada j4..hehe pandai tak aku pasal kasut hehehe ada displayed jersey,memacam..mahal tu memang le mahal,standard ah nike.oh ya,aku dah tau how much is my new idaman kewl nike's sports bra hehehe mahal le
kitorang lapa,jam dah nak pukul 4.so,pemandu pelancong bawak kiterang gi malaysian hall,bayswater.ish seronok,leh makan mesian food,finally.aku duk bincang nak makan apa eh??weh char kuetiaw lama aku tak makan.last time,hari-hari aku dragged kenit gi kj makan char kue tiaw yg diperkenalkan ke aku.hehe pas order,aku dgn fareeza duk balik meja.aku pesan char kuetiaw dgn teh ais.ish slurrpp.all of a sudden,there's sumone there just in front of us and started popping up with these little investigations.pelik dan gelabah gak aku.
uncle(u): ni students ke?
us: aah
u: dr mana ni? (ish muka makin serius je)
us: edinburgh (takut-takut..)
u: datang sini buat apa? (makin menakutkan)
us: errrr,datang visit kawan,datang bejalan
*a little pause*
u: kalau kitorang nak kasi tgk siti,nak tak
us:NAK!NAK! (uih,begitu pantas menjawab akakakakka)
barula that uncle showed us his more frenly looked hehhe
cant believe it,aku dapat opportunity utk gi tgk konsrt tuh.tu la,sapa la letak mahal-mahal lagi.hehe kan bole dapat ke student sengkek cam kitorang nih.terima kasih yaa.rezeki,rezeki esok tgk siti weh.its gonna be 5 of us,jija,leila,azman,fareeza and me la.
pas bayswater,kiterang still lagi discussing the hot topic of de evening,konsert siti nurhaliza tu.to be frank,aku ni biase2 je,anti pon tidak,fanatik pon tidak.kalo kasi scale to 10,barometer kesukaan aku tu leh letak between 6-6.5 over 10.tp lagu dia byk aku layan (alamak,pecah rahsia dehh).
pas merayau seharian,kitorang pon balik ke uxbridge.penat,penat..to be continued
pis bebeh
as promised, this entry and the followings are gonna be our fun-trip to london. sungguh semangat wen it comes to travelling.i didn't sleep at all, as part my celebrations of submitting all assignments.apa mau pike pasal outputnya,deh.. chatted de whole nite, since going to leave dearst for the next few days. warying of wat food dat we might 'encounter' (is it appropriate?) during the journey, kiterang decided nak masak. dengan semangatnya aku masak spaghetti goreng express yang ku tapau.just before 0730 in the morning, smiling happily and sleepy-face, aku ngan fareeza gerak dari umah. first bus stop, st. andrew square bus station.
aku igtkan bawak traveller bag ni might be helpful sbb ko tak payah nak sorong-sorong, tp makin seksa adala.less than maybe 15 minutes, aku started feel the burden on my back. we got ourselves seat, and excitedly tunggu bas jalan.weh jalan ah =)
fareeza cakap kat aku,ko jangan nak tido.kite tido dalam bas gi london nanti. ish aku dahle dah start pening-pening lalat nih,tp tape,tahan tahan.aku rasa,by the time we reached glasgow area,kitorang telelap.all of a sudden,eh dah sampai glasgow.hari awal lagi,baru 0900++ ko lapa tak? aah,aku lapa ni.makan je la bekal
nih. maka, kitorang pon gerakle menuju ke satu coffee shop nih, kat lua sejuknya..toksah cakap.aku rasa dalam 6C kut.
couldn't wait any longer,dua orang monsters finished off de bekal
kat luar sejuk, and mostly kedai pon tak bukak lagi. kiterang pon melepak je dalam kedai tu. dengan cuak carik satu spot yang waiter/waitress dalam kedai tu takleh nampak kiterang. dengan plan beli hot choc untuk cover, aku pon membuka bekal tadi.siap ada fried chicken lagi.mau tak berselera. maka, without wasting our precious time, kiterang pon makan dengan tidak menoleh kiri dan kanan lagi.bes bes. ++kenyang deh++
it's nearly 11, we hurried up to the stance where the bus's waiting. ramai rupanya org nak ke london nih. tepat pukul 11,bas pon jalan.bas jalan,aku pon jalan ke alam mimpi dengan pantas sekali. zzzzzzzzzzzz
seingat aku la,bas ni stopped 3 kali.first stop aku turun,nak gi wash room.memang tade idea kat mana dah ni.aku tanya2 fareeza,agaknya kite kat mana? merayau-rayau gak igt nak beli mags, tp sayang duit lak rasanya.aku beli ribena je.
memang sepanjang bas jalan, kiterang tido.aku memang penat, since the last few weeks before nih aku tak cukup tido.atau tido tak betul.sebab i'll stay until 6 or 7 in the morning, aku bangun at 12 camtu.tido bila subuh dah masuk,bangun waktu zohor.this way i won't miss my subuh hehehe mata lebam toksah cakap.aku pon memang dah lebam. ++lebam++
we were getting near to london.oh wat an excitement. this's de first time i set my foot here. waktu datang sini, aku cuma sempat merasa lantai heathrow je. tapi kat luar tu jam, aku tatau kenapa.jam dah dekat pukul 7. oo rupanya ada accident.biase la perangai mesian,mesti ko nak tengok wat was happening out there?teruk ke acident dia?hehe wat i noticed was, we were the only 2 that tried to catch the glimpse of outside. orang lain? relax je. weh nak sampai dah.. ++gayat++
a fren of us waiting in victoria, and sending us straight to uxbridge.aku call jija,weh,aku dah sampai london.misha!!cepat la,kitorang tunggu ko je ni,sumer orang dah ada sini nak makan. jija was the tuan rumah,celebrating leila's belated beday party as well as our arrival,ni dia cakap le.aku dah le memang lapa.sengih2 je as imagining mesian food.
girls having fun
apa ye?penat memang penat.during the 13 hours journey which i counted in from edin as well, all i did was sitting on the bus.bontotku sakit,pinggah lenguh.belakang sakit.penat is de bes word described.tak saba lak aku rasa nak tido.esok bermula la pengembaraan merayau-rayau...
band of de nite "THE BEN"
okeh,this section is dedicated to "THE BEN" who played such incredible medley of their stuffs. meh sini aku kenalkan.
++lead vocalist++pose poyo sket,kasi nampak cam aku ni ganas padahal tak ahahaha
++lead guitar/backup vocal++muka aku ada macam mamat layan jiwang tak?
++rhythm++sesat dari mana tah??sapa ni weh
++bassist++this is de real kewl girl(perasan!).songwriter who doesnt know how to compose.perasan lagi
++drummer++ni pon sesat jugak
assalamualaikum and hey all,
the title itself, does it sound like a subject?hahaha well,get familiar with it cos i'm ur future lecturer. i might not be a-before-30 dr, but how bout before hitting 35?hehe for him that i'll support, wait until my turn for the doctorate lak.
ok ok just got back from london.well,it hasnt been as smooth as we planned,first we missed the bus on tuesday, so had to wait until thurday?why thursday?sbb kitorang dah nak pengsan duk hangkut beg2 berat tu.on the way back to jija's place,me n fareeza,we're laughing histerically(pathetic tak?) as we call the day as from uxbridge to uxbridge guys, u don't get it,do u? tape tape hanya orang yg mengalaminya je yang paham, like me and fareeza hahaha
places that i'll include are such as: piccadily circus, oxford street, malaysian hall, madame tussaud and many more. some got nice pics,some dont..some are historic places,some are just buildings that dari kaca mata aku, i found it 'something'.some are london's attraction places, some are just nice..
tungguuu!!
p/s: happy belated to me wehee!!
