I've started shopping for new baby quite recently.
Actually it's all started when I went to a facial and the masseur was promoting leesa's formula postnatal set. Since I had the treatment at the spa, there's a 20% discount if I bought the product. I was this close to buy but then halted. Must study this first, I thought.
The next few days was spent on reading reviews and finally I've decided on Tanamera. Firstly I think I could make full use of the products (have started using some actually). During Aaqilah I was on Nona Roguy (love the minyak herba, bau sedap), Natalia was on HPA. OK, I wasn't really concerned on the postnatal set as long as I had one, and both of the sets were specially brought to UK that time. Terima dengan redha. In case of Tanamera, I managed to get that during online promotion.
After that, nothing much purchased, as I always feel that we've got most of the stuffs. To be honest, don't get me started on this because once the list started, I'll end up with what a long one even longer than first time mommies.
So, it's better to have the hospital bag ready first.
The list may yet completes but all I could think so far:
Mine
- Tops (blouses, tshirts)
- Pants (loose)
- Kain batik (if I could find where I keep those haha)
- Maternity/Nursing bras, panties
- Pairs of socks
- Camera (make sure fully charged)
- Handphone and charger/power bank
- Necessary ointments
- Toiletteries/Towel
- Sleepsuits
- Pampers
- Napkins/Swaddle
- Mittens/booties
- Carseat (namanya alang-alang dah ada ;P)
Stumbled upon aden + anais while I was spending some time off in Mothercare. The logo and packaging look so cute that makes me googling about it straight away. Now whose fault is that when drooling over these cutesies. o.h responded, alaa kita pakai lampin je huhuhuhu
So far the search is still no avail, very hard to find the particular easy swaddle here
last week was an exam week for aaqilah. we were a bit nervous at first, and the stress level was hiking as we felt aaqilah wasn't ready for her exam. being a stressful mom (very ones) i started my ceramah and continued blabbering whenever i felt i must to. poor aaqilah..
so a few days before the exam, we have started preparing her with her 2-3 hours per session daily regime. budak tu baru darjah 1 ok. day and night for all subjects. whenever we asked her questions, she became hesitant with her answers and then just simply replied 'i don't know'.
however during the study sessions, questions started to arise. did the learnings were so much fun back then that our parents let us be kids. has the level of education system nowadays increased, thus subjects for standard 1 now become more difficult. or is aaqilah unable to coupe during learning sessions? o.h told aaqilah that he didn't need to study when he was in standard 1-3 and getting 100% was no biggie. all i could recall is, standard 1-3 was quite easy. in order to motivate her, i told aaqilah my favorite subject was mathematics but my english was terrible. her command in english is way better than mine, even natalia speaks english better when i was around their age.
one important question, do we put high expectations on her to always perform? do I put high expectations on her?
a day after her exam finished, o.h told me aaqilah scored 98% for her bahasa melayu.wow, very encouraging. later more results came in, 89% for her maths, B for arabic (around 70++) and 84% for dunia sains. i started to worry again, as i thought if you couldn't get strong A's (90 and above) when you're in standard 1, how will you perform after this?
the answer is always yes. i guess for next year and afterwards, we'll let her being kid of her age but she must abide her responsibity as student, daughter and good muslim. what could be more satisfying than achieving very good results after hard labour?
rumours that i've heard, moms of her classmates complained that the exam was difficult. her friends didn't score either, even their kids told them that the highest score for sains is 80++. err, could it be aaqilah?
let see what her teacher is going to say next week.. jeng jeng jeng
the moment aku putuskan untuk tukar plan, secara tak langsung the consequence dan juga outcome berubah. sms dan call pijah tak dapat, aku terus gerak pergi bukit damansara. walaupun dah lambat nearly 15 minit kat sekolah aaqilah, trafik sesak macam waktu budak-budak balik sekolah. takde empty space untuk parking plus hari panas membuatkan hati aku juga panas. sekali aku terlepas cakap, oh aku ni malang. ok, wish granted very soon.
akhirnya aku nampak area kosong nun jauh dari sekolah. ok takdela jauh sangat tapi sila layankan saja citer nih. aku pon tak pernah parking kat area ni, so i drove slowly to park. rasa macam tak cukup rapat dengan tepi jalan so dari penglihatan aku yang memang rendah ni, aku redah aje, sampai tiba2 aku rasakan tayar depan termasuk dalam something hollow. erk alamak, aku try reverse rasa tayar spin. ke depan pun tak dapat, so aku keluar dan check apa jadi. rupanya tayar depan kiri masuk lubang tepi jalan man-man saiz tayar kereta. puh rasa malang kat dahi aku sangat obvious ni. nak nangis pon ada.
aku masuk kereta, cuba untuk calm down dan thanks to smart phone aku google bengkel in the area. macam takde je. masa semakin berjalan so aku rasa better jemput aaqilah dulu dan fikirkan option yang ada. on the way walking back to the car, ada sekumpulan pakcik-pakcik ni aku terasa nak bertanya. derang pon point out nearest bengkel maybe in hartamas area, or bangsar. so aku pon rasa bolehla try call adn elok je nak gerak derang tanya kenapa. apa lagi aku pun terus bukak cerita pasal kereta stuck. sikit lagi rasa nak mengalir air mata memandangkan suara aku dah start bergetar. derang offer nak tengok so apa lagi bagai ngantuk disorongkan bantal aku pun lead the way.
within the next 10 minit kereta pun berjaya keluar dari lubang jalan dengan very minor wrecks, at least pada mata aku la. rim ada kesan calar sikit tapi sekali pandang memang tak perasan. so far driving aku rasa macam ok lagi. dalam keadaan yang sangat down itu, aku memang sangat thankful kerana ada lagi strangers di sekitar yang masih boleh diharapkan pertolongan. out of desperation, i came seeking for help from a group of strangers. hanya Allah saje yang dapat membalas kebaikan pakcik-pakcik tadi, amin..
so lunch nasi kosong dengan ikan goreng berdua dengan aaqilah kat bawah wisma rnd, kes dah lambat dan lauk banyak habis.
what if i stick to the original plan?
what if i managed to meet pijah after plan changed?
what if this, and what if that?
daripada memikirkan kemungkinan, baik aku mengambil tauladan dan pengajaran..
i don't know how the thrills and excitement of blogging went kaput.
it just stopped and that's it.
until today, when i was trying to recall something that i've posted before. there i have it and all of a sudden the excitement and thrills slowly came back. the blog looks clean, all thanks to the white background. although the font looks small, thank God i still have not much problem reading them.
since the last post, i've always felt that nothing much happened and to share. the list of readings has significantly decreased over the years. i wasn't interested in things anymore, i felt that work and family life have consumed most of my energy yang tak seberapa ni. the life itself has become routine, weekend is more like a commitment and to be honest, once in a while not really looking towards it.
sometimes the small things around you make the life much more appreciated and sweeter.
hey hasniza, welcome back and let's enjoy this ride again =)
december datang lagi..
macam baru je januari rasanya, tiba-tiba dah nak masuk tahun baru. alhamdulillah sebab punya kesempatan untuk welcome tahun baru, dan juga untuk a roller coaster ride of 2012. biasalah jalan tak semestinya lurus dan cantik macam highway, ada banyak simpang, roundabout, traffic light dan sebagainya. kadang-kadang sampai jalan mati dan kena buat 3 point turn dan patah balik. oh aku dan metafora, getting better gitu haha
jadi apa kita nak cerita pasal 2012 ni. alhamdulillah =) dari awal tahun aku ada la berazam secara agak hangat-hangat taik ayam supaya lebih produktif, lebih rajin dan lebih progresif. tak nak malas-malas sangat. nak belajar something yang baru.
somehow most of my wishes were answered. kadang-kadang kita tak sedar tapi apa yang kita nak dan doa secara diam dimakbulkan. mungkin not the exact wish tapi Allah itu maha besar dan maha mengetahui. dan selalunya apa kau dapat insyaAllah baiklah untuk kau, walaupun mungkin kita tak nampak hari ni. of course aku terus doakan plan yang lebih grand dan baik dari hari ini amin..
nampaknya 2012 started dengan perasaan agak demotivated. aku sebok mencari job baru. dan seperti biasalah aku ni, string of failures, macam sinonim. aku dapat interview kat company idaman, sampai dekat 2 jam, macam ada harapan dan of course aku berharap. tapi bila takde orang call esoknya atau lusanya dan juga sepanjang minggu, aku rasa another failure ni. lepas tu bila aku check kat sistem, walaupun as expected tapi sakit jugak ooo tengok terpampang depan mata, UNSUCCESSFUL status tu. pergh, makan dalam. lepas tu aku pon pasrah dan layan je. team ok, uk counterparts pon ok, tapi aku macam searching for something yang tak diketahui.
sangat tak tersangka akan dapat panggilan about a week after birthday. aku pergi dengan tak berharap pape, dan belasah aje dalam bahasa pasarnya. who knows, rezeki tu belongs to me. started the new journey in august, dan so far banyak benda nak kena belajar. yelah dah niat nak belajar sampai pandai kan. jangan give up dan sentiasa berusaha =) gambate!!
bandung, berlin and stavanger, woww very unexpected
after a while, i tend to forget how good and reliable i could be. dah lama aku rasa aku ni full of craps dan poyo. poyo poyo poyo. lazy bum. pathetic. sedeh. ah masih belum terlambat untuk melakukan sesuatu la.
harapan 2013 kita cerita dalam entri lain la ye. yang pasti miss aaqilah akan standard 1. hari tu aku cakap kat dia, aaqilah next year aaqilah standard 1. lepas tu darjah 6. then sekolah menengah, uni, kerja and nak kahwin. aaahh sedihnya maa.. dengan tersipu-sipu tak sure dia faham ke tak dia reply, apaa la maa ni..
a long december and there's reason to believe
maybe this year will be better than the last
i can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving
oh the days go by so fast
and it's been a long december and there's reason to believe
maybe this year will be better than the last
i can't remember all the times i tried to tell myself
to hold on to these moments as they pass
p/s: esok nak melayan counting crows la hahaha
One of the most well-known landmarks of Berlin, this is a former city gate or it's famously known as Branderburger Tor.
I'd really like to close Berlin's stories here and now to proceed with other unrelated entries. I thought this is a like a perfect ending, but you're welcomed to browse other photos at my flickr page. The passion towards photography is still burning =) as i recently found a new journey with smart phone.
what i remembered most about this city gate? well, obviously during the 2006 world cup in germany, branderburger tor was a major highlight. bbc put it as their main stage during the coverage and we were amazed at its grandeur display especially during night. one of the world cup editions in which we managed to watch almost all the games, even when i was in hospital due to labour. how can i forget when italy emerged as the eventual winner.
btw, this is the closest shot i managed to get. unlucky for us, there's an ongoing berlin marathon on the day we went to see branderburger tor.
Hallo Berlin 2012
Berlin's view from my window seat.
Tenang sayup mata memandang, mungkinkah ini River Spree?
The tram, public transportation here is very convenient and reliable. I've grown fond of trams as stations are nearer and one of the easiest way to enjoy city rides.If you travel in a group (max 5 people), buy a daily group pass. Once bought, don't forget to get the ticket validated at the machine in trams or near subways.
In Alexanderplatz, one of the biggest and most happening squares in the city centre. The famous Octoberfest was due to start on the eve of October. Unfortunately the weather wasn't on our side, hardly any big fluffy clouds appeared.
They're getting ready for Octoberfest. Souvenirs aren't as cheap as we hoped, but many interesting stuffs that caught your eyes and drew your big fat wallet out haha
Aww, weren't they lovelies?
i think i was quite comfortable and ready for this one. why not, another bundle of joy is more than welcome to what we 're having now. natalia is getting bigger and should learn the responsibility being a big sister. unlike aaqilah, she has much more exposure to kids around her age. to aaqilah it's always ok.
frankly speaking, at first i wanted one, and apparently i thought i wanted one, if you know what i mean. when the blue line clearly showed the 2 lines, i was a bit stunned. i told o.h, we never fail at this test. however, there's one bit at the deepest part instinctively came out out of nowhere, sure you ready this time? yeah, being thankful i must welcome.
unlike the previous 2 before, i felt fine. once in a while i nearly forgot that there's a bun in the oven. but one day when i traced there's bleeding i started to panic. i left early, drove to shah alam to pickup kids and then was rushing to the clinic. unfortunately my doctor wasn't around and we went home. i prayed hard, please please please..
the next morning, i was still bleeding and after calling a day off, i went again to clinic for check. the doctor was a bit worried and she sent me to specialist for further checkup. she told me, if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. God must have a better plan for me insyaAllah.
although i went to clinic since morning, it's only nearly 5pm i was driving home, alone. o.h was already informed. it's been such a tiring and overwhelming day for me. it's confirmed that i was having a miscarriage and the d&c should follow next.
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this friday will mark a month after the procedure. i'd really thought that i was tough, however it hit me all of a sudden while in a car with o.h on our way back. i felt loss, but i believe it too, if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be..
till next time, amin..
aku demam dan kebah beberapa kali di musim 7..
anything can happen in 8th season. seems almost certain but the the journey in the middle must be told convincingly haha
the gentleman..
my jpo trip today, the first ever.
oh tooks days off, sempena untuk bawak kiterang jalan-jalan. so it came down to jpo against nasi ganja. ye, memang meleleh air liur gak teringat nasi ganja but never went to jpo before. saja nak tengok camne. komen orang, fossil best, la senza not bad.
komen aku, fossil memang best. seronok aku masuk ahahaha.. la senza, probably bukan rezeki aku untuk offer menarik, better beli di waktu sale cam sekarang. with additional member's discount, much more better and more options to choose.
barang macam tak berapa banyak. sale pon tak berapa menarik. ada laa jugak, tapi mungkin saya sudah tidak punya mood sangat. alaa macam bila mood untuk besoping, maka belek barang pon dengan perasaan gembira.
oh cakap even lower standard than junction apa ntah kat area sheffield/leeds tu. aku rasa memang tak telawan bicester village, portsmouth, swindon, ashford dan sewaktu dengannya. la valle pon barang2 menarik dan lagi banyak, walopon tak murah. tak fair plak rasanya nak compare kan hehehe
nak buat camne, dah the number itself in rrp is already huge..
hh - kedai worth to visit -> fossil
oh - nike, adidas
alasan pembelian - senang nak letak henpon n duit waktu nak klua lunch ahahaha
hh : aaqilah, esok birthday maa
oh : kita nak kasi maa apa aaqilah?
aaq : kita kasi maa tabung duit
nat : yeyy
i was like, ooo ok =) dalam hati bangga gak ahaks
hh : bihun soto ayam 1, teh 3 layer - 1, awak nak apa bby?
oh : hmm michael jackson - 1
all : ah? (suprising)
rupanya michael jackson is soya + cincau. available at warung, mid valley, in front of fos. wah ni iklan free heheh
makeups are not compulsory, but they are like a necessity. i'm pretty sure that most women out there at least put on moisturizers and a pressed powder in handbags is a must.
a good article i stumbled upon this morning - heavy metals found in many cosmetics, not listed on labels.
it even listed a few products to have the highest levels of impurities, such as:
- Clinique Stay True Makeup foundation (Stay Ivory) — arsenic, cadmium, beryllium, lead, nickel, thallium
- Sephora Sculpting Powder Trio eye shadow (Brown and Pink) — beryllium, lead, nickel, thallium
- MAC Sheerton Shimmer Blush (Springsheen) — beryllium, lead, nickel, thallium
- L'Oreal Bare Naturale mascara (Black/Brown) — arsenic, beryllium, cadmium, lead, nickel, thallium
- Cover Girl Perfect Point Plus eyeliner (Black Onyx) — beryllium, cadmium, lead, nickel
- Almay Intense i-color Trio eye color (Trio for Blues, Brown and Dark Grey) — beryllium, cadmium, lead, nickel, selenium
- Benefit Benetint Pocket Pal (Red Tint and Clear Gloss) — arsenic, beryllium, cadmium, lead, nickel, selenium, thallium
wish more women would work on being beautiful on the inside, a smile is a much prettierworks everytime and very cost effective =)
totally..
gotta admit that season 7 of himym is intoxicating, heartbreaking, rollercoaster riding.. at least to me. i've been infatuated since the episode in which barney and robin hooking up again. accidentally, coincidentally, on purpose or whatever..
season 7 isn't as funny as the first 3 seasons, but emotionally affected.
who's the bride, who's the titular mother?
jodoh.
dengan siapa, macam mana, kenapa, di mana?
coincidentally tarikh dia hari ni plak, saya tak sengaja. btw draft berabuk ni dah nak sebulan. hari-hari aku duk ngadap skrin yang sama terkebil-kebil mencari idea. jodoh oh jodoh, rezeki oh rezeki.
bukankah sudah tersurat di loh mahfuz ketentuan jodoh, rezeki, dan maut itu. jadi setiap dari kita ni ada other halfnya insyaAllah. tapi takdelah sampai tak berusaha langsung, mentang-mentanglah dah tertulis. adakah jodoh ini takdir yang kita pilih sendiri, jika dia passes by, that moment and that person won't be coming back. macam tu ke. atau seperti yang aku pernah baca, if he/she's meant to be, he/she's meant to be..
marriage ialah relationship kan, jadi takde kuasa magik yang membuatkan semuanya smooth sailing. marriage/relationship needs hard work from both ends and never to give up. apa yang aku nak cuba relatekan dengan cerita di atas ialah macam ni, sila baca untuk beberapa perenggan berikutnya hahaha. kadang-kadang ada hari matahari bersinar terang gemilang, langit biru siap ada burung terbang bebas riang. ada hari gerimis. ada hari hujan lebat, siap ada petir guruh lengkap. ye, dia pelengkap, tapi once in a while aku pon bole naik darah jugak. sama-sama tensen dengan macam-macam peel masing-masing. ops, baru kawen nak masuk 7 tahun ni ;)
have you ever thought, why me? dah le pendek, tak putih (ok, tanak mengaku aku gelap di sini), kasar, tomboyish, tak manja, menggelabah ayam, train wreck, temperamental dan sebagainya. on the other hand, dia adalah sebaliknya. physically attractive, berjaya, high self-esteem, ciri-ciri berjaya.
dia pernah cakap, awak cool. oh seriously kembang kuncup hidung aku bangga time tu. hati rasa bunga-bunga ria. jadi ada 1001 macam sebab kenapa aku dan dia. kalau nak list down mau berapa jam lagi aku tetap mengadap skrin ni memikirkan jawapannya. ultimately ialah saya jodoh awak dan awak jodoh saya.
aku berdoa untuk lelaki yang baik, bukan setakat dia baik tapi baik hatinya. aku suka lelaki yang pandai, ye sangat pandai. aku ni macam keretapi tanah melayu dan dia macam shinkansen. aku suka lelaki yang ada ilmu dunia dan agama di dada, alhamdulillah dia punya. aku nak rasa sangat selesa, the comfy cushion physically and emotionally. aku suka lelaki yang sedap di pandang mata. despite whatever people used to say that he's too pretty, dia as a person came top on my list. that's the magic i guess, somehow the obvious appearance becomes unnoticeable. (told you, the list keeps going)
rupanya lambakan bunga, coklat, heart shaped balloons and v-day deco kat sunway pyramid tadi berjaya jugaklah menjadikan aku orang jiwa-jiwa malam ni. aiiii...
