there she goes

If, let say you have an option between the following two, which one do you choose and why

A pair of tieks - obviously a very indulging pair of flats which i've been drooling for quite some time huhu can't find it in any shops, you have to buy it online http://tieks.com

design - oh yes.
functionality - can't say as i don't own one, never tested before.
price wise - pricey :(

Loading

Happy first day of fall! A much welcomed change after this L.A. heatwave :) #Tieks #FirstDayOfFall

View on Instagram

Loading

Tula best 👍 tq aunty @theshyshy Model: #wisesufi Photo by: @theanum

View on Instagram

You are your own product.

I've read it somewhere, but it didn't really struck me until I heard on radio this morning. The fact that Sarimah the deejay completed her degree, got her martial arts thingy which I think on instructor level, she's also a pilates instructor certified etc etc made me realized that there's so much more in the world that you can learn, invest, be good at and make a living, who knows.

I am an IT person. People may say that I could do other part time IT stuffs such as website, coding, hard core programming but for me IT is my main source of income aka 9-6 job at the moment. Coming back home I have three kids to attend, and after dinner either I cook or buy from kedai, all energy left is for putting Sufi to sleep. Laptop is left untouched beside me. No more codes or even games which I could bear to stare at, not even lay my fingers on.

What else apart from IT skills? I guess I have baking. Baking is my other passion, but to be honest I can't stand baking 24-7 too. I learn baking from books (when you buy there some investments), youtube and by experiments since young. I went to classes as well but couldn't afford to go many, so I'm a bit picky about which ones is more suitable to attend. Some skills you need learn from a master, some you can train and build over time. Alhamdulillah so far baking is part of my financial aids and one of my future investments.

However, I have started to obsess with exercises and work-outs such as yoga, zumba and cardio classes quite recently. i still swim whenever i can. I've started yoga in 2011 and was pretty amazed at my own capability. I really liked zumba when I first went to the class until I thought I should be a zumba instructor in order to do zumba like everyday hahaha but where do i begin to get certified? whenever i see new shoplots area, i thought, what if i invested in a studio? not only that you lead a healthy lifestyle but probably you'll have more time to roam free :)

the other skill that i've always dreamed long time ago is learning foreign language. not only learning but i want to be fluent and able to converse like speaking english. back then when taking japanese during uni days, i did well and really enjoyed the whole experience. for me, learning new languages is way easier than computer languages hahahaha many years ago, i used to self-taught myself basic french and italians which i demonstrated in front of o.h and left him in awe. such a joy and victorious! when taking classes, it's a commitment but a good opportunity to meet people and build network.

as i am listing down the mentioned above, funds and time won't allow me to achieve all at once. but i guess i can do one by one, by setting up a short-term goal. at least until end of the year, i should be able do this or at a certain level of something. more realistic and manageable put less pressure on myself hence they're doable. the most important thing is to never give up and never think that it's too late for everything. there's always a start for something to begin.

pray hard and work smart, insyaAllah. later play hard :)

when i was asked what do i want for this year's birthday, i was sincerely clueless. how can i ask him for a present when i still owe him one for last year's. and then i've got the ultimate loafer for anniversary and accidentally lost one of the pair in a such freaking way within a month. i also couldn't make up my mind on what i want. ok, i want bottega veneta's nappa and i don't want to splurge myself to an impulsive buying which will make me regret after that. even i've had burberry's lace clutch in my hands, twice in jpo, i'm very proud of myself for having the ability to put a stop at this craziness. bravo hasniza, bravo!!

but actually, what more could i ask when i have o.h, aaqilah, natalia and now sufi in my life. it's a blessing when my parents and in laws are still around, in good healths and my siblings are all doing quite well. john and paul, you were totally right that money can't buy me love.

 we have a new addition to the family, baby sufi asfi kaleela.

 

I wasn't really on a particular colour but I just loved the fabric and it happened to be purple for my husband's reception.
After nearly 9 years and 3 daughters 

Although it might be a bit late, introducing to you guys these 2 special instagram accounts, @cupsters   and the latter @projekshawl.

@cupsters
Our humble online baking business which I've founded many many years ago with the chocolate cake as the beginning. It's not really huge but manageable and we're proud of our homemade products ;) Highly recommended - Red Velvet cake/cupcake with creamy cheese cream frosting and always my favourite, Devils Food cupcake with chocolate ganache.

Feel free to follow @cupsters and to like our page too Cupsters.Monsters



@projekshawl
Due to my petite built, I've always had problems finding my perfect shawl. If the width is ok, I've had issues with the length and vice versa. Sometimes I've had issues with the materials's opaqueness and material itself. When I see others wearing cute shawls, I always wonder where did they get theirs and one day I thought why not do it myself ones. So that's how it began, a small side project by yours truly. But who knows where this step might lead me to, amen.. Psss, just let me know if you like any of these..

Anyway, there're still many rooms for improvements and a lot for me to learn. It's exciting, challenging and yet could be rewarding. So please, your supports are very much appreciated..

Follow @projekshawl and like the page projekshawl

saya tengah bercuti maternity, sekarang nearly 2 bulan, 1 month to go.

ops, sebenarnya permohonan untuk extend lagi 3 bulan cuti dah approved. in total aku akan cuti 6 bulan, i'll be back to office in july insyaAllah. of course unpaid the extra 3 months tu.

dari tahun lepas lagi aku dah poyo-poyo inform erik yang aku nak extend cuti cuma tak sure berapa bulan. camni, my colleague started this trend of extending maternity leave to the maximum of 6 months in the office and followed by others. aku ni orang ke-3 bercuti lama sakan. bukannya apa, aku kesian nak hantar sufi ke babysitter as young as 3 months, by 6 months she should be ready by then. lagipun disebabkan aku went tru c-sec ari tu, aku rasa eloklah berehat lama sikit.

once cuti aku dapat lampu hijau, tiba-tiba aku pulak yang jadi panik. how am i going to pay my bills? adakah decision aku ni tak berapa wise? money issue, financial woes.

akan tetapi, aku yakinkan dalam hati, rezeki itu rahsia Allah. kenapa aku nak risaukan perkara yang dah ditentukan. aku berusaha from my end, dan pray for the very best.. ameen..

my jpo trip today, the first ever.

oh tooks days off, sempena untuk bawak kiterang jalan-jalan. so it came down to jpo against nasi ganja. ye, memang meleleh air liur gak teringat nasi ganja but never went to jpo before. saja nak tengok camne. komen orang, fossil best, la senza not bad.

komen aku, fossil memang best. seronok aku masuk ahahaha.. la senza, probably bukan rezeki aku untuk offer menarik, better beli di waktu sale cam sekarang. with additional member's discount, much more better and more options to choose.

barang macam tak berapa banyak. sale pon tak berapa menarik. ada laa jugak, tapi mungkin saya sudah tidak punya mood sangat. alaa macam bila mood untuk besoping, maka belek barang pon dengan perasaan gembira.

oh cakap even lower standard than junction apa ntah kat area sheffield/leeds tu. aku rasa memang tak telawan bicester village, portsmouth, swindon, ashford dan sewaktu dengannya. la valle pon barang2 menarik dan lagi banyak, walopon tak murah. tak fair plak rasanya nak compare kan hehehe

nak buat camne, dah the number itself in rrp is already huge..

hh - kedai worth to visit -> fossil
oh - nike, adidas

alasan pembelian - senang nak letak henpon n duit waktu nak klua lunch ahahaha

jodoh.

dengan siapa, macam mana, kenapa, di mana?

coincidentally tarikh dia hari ni plak, saya tak sengaja. btw draft berabuk ni dah nak sebulan. hari-hari aku duk ngadap skrin yang sama terkebil-kebil mencari idea. jodoh oh jodoh, rezeki oh rezeki.

bukankah sudah tersurat di loh mahfuz ketentuan jodoh, rezeki, dan maut itu. jadi setiap dari kita ni ada other halfnya insyaAllah. tapi takdelah sampai tak berusaha langsung, mentang-mentanglah dah tertulis. adakah jodoh ini takdir yang kita pilih sendiri, jika dia passes by, that moment and that person won't be coming back. macam tu ke. atau seperti yang aku pernah baca, if he/she's meant to be, he/she's meant to be..

marriage ialah relationship kan, jadi takde kuasa magik yang membuatkan semuanya smooth sailing. marriage/relationship needs hard work from both ends and never to give up. apa yang aku nak cuba relatekan dengan cerita di atas ialah macam ni, sila baca untuk beberapa perenggan berikutnya hahaha. kadang-kadang ada hari matahari bersinar terang gemilang, langit biru siap ada burung terbang bebas riang. ada hari gerimis. ada hari hujan lebat, siap ada petir guruh lengkap. ye, dia pelengkap, tapi once in a while aku pon bole naik darah jugak. sama-sama tensen dengan macam-macam peel masing-masing. ops, baru kawen nak masuk 7 tahun ni ;)

have you ever thought, why me? dah le pendek, tak putih (ok, tanak mengaku aku gelap di sini), kasar, tomboyish, tak manja, menggelabah ayam, train wreck, temperamental dan sebagainya. on the other hand, dia adalah sebaliknya. physically attractive, berjaya, high self-esteem, ciri-ciri berjaya.

dia pernah cakap, awak cool. oh seriously kembang kuncup hidung aku bangga time tu. hati rasa bunga-bunga ria. jadi ada 1001 macam sebab kenapa aku dan dia. kalau nak list down mau berapa jam lagi aku tetap mengadap skrin ni memikirkan jawapannya. ultimately ialah saya jodoh awak dan awak jodoh saya. 

aku berdoa untuk lelaki yang baik, bukan setakat dia baik tapi baik hatinya. aku suka lelaki yang pandai, ye sangat pandai. aku ni macam keretapi tanah melayu dan dia macam shinkansen. aku suka lelaki yang ada ilmu dunia dan agama di dada, alhamdulillah dia punya. aku nak rasa sangat selesa, the comfy cushion physically and emotionally. aku suka lelaki yang sedap di pandang mata. despite whatever people used to say that he's too pretty, dia as a person came top on my list. that's the magic i guess, somehow the obvious appearance becomes unnoticeable. (told you, the list keeps going)

rupanya lambakan bunga, coklat, heart shaped balloons and v-day deco kat sunway pyramid tadi berjaya jugaklah menjadikan aku orang jiwa-jiwa malam ni. aiiii...

ok, kali ni entri yang aku malas nak fikir dan simply type saja. is that possible?

dengan tak semena-mena aku cuba untuk ada entri just before 2012, tapi sebab layan tv dan budak-budak manja ni, tak sempat. dapatla 12.00 am on the dot. tak dapatlah date 31.12.2011. that's fine. sebab aku fikir aku akan the next 24 hours untuk coming up with a new entry serba semangat on the 1st jan. haha nil too

2011, nothing much happened. wasn's as tough and challenging as 2010, but picked up really slow. tatau camne nak cakap, but i sense something better this year? ameen and insyaAllah =)

o.h masih kuat semangat mengejar cita-cita baru as a pro golfer. aku masih lagi rasa stuck. sungguh tak best. stuck tang mana, mengapa, kenapa, pasal apa? aku pun stuck dengan jawapan yang still beneath surface. simply because, aku kurang bersyukur dengan kehidupan yang serba ada ni. whining, bitching and complaining, all the time. jadi, all the negativities only make you feel like sh7t.

tahun baru islam masih tak sampai 2 bulan. dengan kedatangan tahun baru 2012 ni, semoga semangat berkobar-kobar yang datang ni lebih membuatkan tak lupa pada the old hasniza. when she's 12, 15, or 21. probably the carefree 25. ok itu sekadar umur. kesimpulannya, di manakah hasniza yang ambitious, driven dan penuh daya imaginasi tinggi itu?

1st, bersyukur dari hati yang ikhlas dan humble, di atas segala nikmat dan apa yang kita ada sehingga kini. o.h the husband, the man and the best friend. a.a.i and n.a.a. syukur alhamdulillah kerana mak semakin kuat dan sihat, syukur untuk kesihatan yang terbaik dan keluarga besar tersayang. kesihatan yang baik, that's priceless. jadi mari kita teruskan dengan kesyukuran ini insyaAllah.

aku pernah terbaca somewhere,  apa yang Allah tunaikan untuk kita kerana Dia maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk kita walaupun kita fikirkan/mahukan sebaliknya. mungkin kita tak sedar sekarang, kan. bila difikir-fikir balik, alhamdulillah apa yang aku pernah niat, hajat dan doakan, somehow granted, walaupun dalam keadaan sengaja dan tak sengaja.

alhamdulillah..

it's hard to get back to blogging after so long.

kata o.h, blogging is dead. sekarang orang nak mengupdate sesuatu sangat senang, dengan adanya facebook, twitter dan bermacam-macam lagi social networking tools yang ada di dunia yang canggih ni. super ringkas dan super padat. orang macam aku yang layan tulis benda yang berjela-jela ni rasa, susahnya nak put into few words. sementelah broadband ni tak free, jadi maka baiklah kita menggunakan semaksima mungkin. mungkin ada orang yang masih sudi membaca tulisan panjang berjela ;)

yes, i come to realize that my extra time yang tak seberapa itu is much more needed by other people. probably kalau aku punya teknologi canggih seperti ipad (thank you steve jobs) pon belum tentu aku akan sentiasa berblog. blogging yang aku sudah ulang kali cakap, satu terapi yang sangat bagus, bila idea itu datang tanpa henti.

ada satu part dalam komik doraemon bila nobita kena menulis dan kasi alasan yang alangkah bagusnya kalau ada tool yang boleh menulis direct dari apa yang kita fikirkan. wah kalau macam tu memang aku boleh menulis 10 kali sehari, strongly proves that i think a lot inside. tak bagus, sebab punya tendency untuk mendatangkan headache dan heartache. tapi at least aku tak buat dosa free hahaha

ye, pagi ni seumpama satu kejutan dan entah kenapa aku rasa sedih pulak walhal takde kaitan langsung. mungkin sebab apple impress me so much for its clean design and the simplicity concept. neither over the top nor pretentious. kata julia child, simple doesn't mean that it easy. kata o.h once you go mac, you'll never go back.

permulaan yang decent dari saya ;)

ciao and salam

This entry is so outdated, actually attended the workshop in February or March. oh aku sendiri tak ingat. dapat sms jemputan, konfirmkan kedatangan dan venuenya - the apartment. wah terasa ekslusif untuk hari yang ekslusif. by the way, it FOC hehehe

the introductory of the new whitening products, sesi mencuba di muka sendiri as in walaupun saya pakai tudung tetapi sangat bersemangat menolak tudung untuk mendapatkan setiap inci muka dengan semaksima mungkin. akhir sekali, complimentary mekap by anna sui. happening tak =)

kata nak raya kan, terasa la nak bergaya dengan purse baru hehehe..

takdela, aku jumpa blog ni via women's weekly. first impression, cantiknya. jadi kemudian aku pon sedang browsing produk kat minah ni punya blog. memang comel-comel. ada satu design with parisian corak, sangat comel tapi dah sold out. lepas kira-kira aku rasa boleh la beli, first time ni nak pakai purse panjang.

cute, kemas, sleek, yang paling saya suka ialah flatness.

Artchala Handmade

yang ni pon aku suka, terasa nak mengorder passport holder, comel =) Syasya Creative Handmade Bags

packaging itself impresses you a lot

oh la la


originally uploaded by hasniza.

don't count me out yet.

aku belum bersara lagi dari dunia blogging. aku still think yang blogging ialah salah satu therapy dan juga medium untuk networking sesama kawan-kawan. masih suka juga untuk bercerita dan merepek merapu.

cuma sekarang ni, masa sangat limited. siang memang tak dapat, malam selalunya masak, dinner, kemas pape yang patut dan tidurkan budak-budak ni. selalunya aku pon tertidur sama punya. nantilah aku nak try blogging dari email plak. aaa baru la gila up to date.

sementara nak tunggu nadal main ni (kalau nadal dah main tu memang miss la i) aku melayan laa blog terchenta ni kejap. lagipon natalia tengah napping, kalau tak susah mau fokus. speaking about her, uih nakal boleh tahan sekarang ni. lasaknya lain macam, agresifnya lebih dari aaqilah kecik-kecik dulu. waktu aaqilah kecik-kecik dulu, dia ada 1 habit yakni touching stuffs. dia suka usik, tapi memang usik je la. kalau natalia selagi tak dapat, selagi tu dia tak give up. determine and persistent. mana aku tak makin kurus, kerja mengejar dua orang sekarang. kalau kena tangkap, kuat pulak tu tenaga dia nak meloloskan diri. kalau senyum geram je aku rasa nak gigit-gigit pipi dia. bukan geram sebab dia kasi comel, sebab geram taktik dia nak kasi kita cair plak. kadang-kadang bila aku ngantuk kat ofis, sengih sorang-sorang i bila tengok gambar budak-budak tu kat ipod. haisshh.. windu la plak huhu

aaqilah this year turns 5 kan. so sekarang dia dah pergi sekolah. hari tu bila dapat baju sekolah, aku pon pakaikan untuk fitting. bila dah siap pakai, haii rasa syahdu tengok my petite daughter hari ni pakai baju tadika. memanglah gembira dia dah start pergi sekolah, tapi kejap je kan masa berlalu. sekarang ni natalia still a baby to me, but one day she'll follow aaqilah's footsteps too. aku selalu cakap, nantilah korang besar sket, maa dan ayah nak gi travel dua orang. hakikatnya, aku masih belum sampai hati nak buat camtu despite million times i kept repeating the same sentence. nampaknya bila natalia dah besar sikit, maybe it's time for another one or two =) ops after another backpacking trip.

still in the mood for shopping. already imagining something special for my birthday treat. ada rezeki ada laa tu, insyaAllah. tahun ni saya berazam untuk mendapatkan satu handbag yang sangat kewl kekekke

ok, mencari momentum untuk terus blogging..

semalam kiterang beramai-ramai attended sesi kaunseling pasal stem cell transplant at hukm. by 'we', i mean ayah mak aku, maklang, o.h, wan and norie, ayi, bedah and zara dan juga aja. pijah and adik sekolah. boleh tahan lama jugak jadinya, dari 3.30 sampai dekat 5.30. sampaikan staff nurse tu cakap, puh banyak saya cakap hari ni resulting to our string of questions.

but first of all, syukur alhamdulillah di atas kasih sayang, limpahan rahmat dan kurniaNya, results dari mri dan ct scan mak aku menunjukkan tanda-tanda yang positif, yakni clear. cuma at the moment, disebabkan dari siri kemoterapi sejak beberapa bulan lepas, mak aku kena kayap pulak. since demam dan kayap maka kena kuarantin kat hospital untuk rawatan antibiotik.

for further reading pasal stem cell transplant.

insyaAllah kalau condition mak aku bagus, awal november ni bermulalah prosedur yang akan dijalankan di hukm jugak. kalau sebelum ni mak aku warded kat hemato ward tingkat 6, pasni pindah tingkat 2 wad untuk transplant patient. dari yang derang ni cerita, biliknya macam 3 star hotel gitu. siap ada uniform khas untuk penjaga lagi. cuma lebih strict, visitors not more than 2 people untuk masa yang singkat. itupon depends pada staff nurse yang bertugas. food yang beli dari luar is strictly prohibited. food yang masak pon kena immediately makan. konklusinya the first 2 weeks adalah waktu yang kritikal dan sangat perlukan penjagaan rapi dan kerjasama dari semua orang.

korang, aku nak ucapkan jutaan terima kasih di atas doa yang tak putus-putus,well wishes dan juga morale supports yang diberikan. hanya Allah yang dapat membalas dengan sebaik-baik balasan.. saya terharu ;)

Hey you,
the little baby of mine++. the Cupsters
feel free to hippity-hop-hop

Terima kasih

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.